I am here, and I am not okay, not right now.
I don’t know what is happening, everything is going too fast, I miss you. I have done everything I thought you wanted from me, but it is never enough, cause I am not her, I am not as good as everyone else.
I feel like a piece of shit.
Only the moments when i was with you I was really happy, but seconds later, when you left, I felt good and broken at the same time. I HATE YOU, i hate you so much.
I dont understand anything
Everything beats me, all is beyond me. I cant.
I need something, it is like i am looking for it but I dont know what is.
I am so lost, i want to believe that is your fault, but it is only mine, isnt it darling? Boy, I thought we were different, I believed we were doing it in a different way, but when i go to my bed, alone, at night, I remember every kiss, every sigh, and I feel so lonely, because when i am with you it is like my mind creates everything.
It is like we are not two different persons, that we can feel each other.
But then you disappear, you go away, and I die another night alone.
You don’t see what is going on? Explain me what do you want, what do you need!
Help me.
I need you.
I need you to survive. I cant do it, you dont see i am falling? i am losing everything i have loved, all i have had.
